SAPPHIRE AND FADED JEANS Ü

Question: When life hits you then it misses you, isn't that happiness at its finest? When you want a toy then life gives you something more, isn't that something to be grateful for? .

Answer: Maybe.

I don't get you. You're there but you're not really there. You love hints, i'm good at clues; but, were both stupid when it comes to saying the truth. The thing is, I 've always been here, savoring every second of my life -- with or without you. All I needed was an assurance, that it was me all along. i don't settle for anything less because i want it to be you. Everybody knows it; yet your indifference calls the shots.

Call me or txt me when you stumble upon this entry.

I am still waiting.

For now, I will rant. I will tell the whole world how i feel right now. why i feel so bad and inadequate.

I am getting fat. it's not that i am a lady with weight issues. it is just that i don't want to look like an elephant or anything.

I am a FATTY.

and you know how determined i am? i am not eating rice...since yesterday. damn. it is so hard. once, i was like so thin. i only eat two apples a day and i can take it.

in the status quo, (OMFG) i can't even last two hours without eating anything -- be it isaw, fishball, cheesesticks.

oh, well, you can't blame me if i want to look like this lady from Hamburg. Got this snapee from lookbook.

Eveything that i desire in my life is in this snapee. (well, partly. i still have other desires).

1. i want to be thin like her.

2. i want to go to PARIS one day.

Now that i have released all the NV (negative vibes) within me, i think i will try to start anew. Live healthy and be happy and of course, love my fat body. GRR. toodee.

Life's a one BIG partyyyyy!

Photography is something that I really want to learn; however, having it as a subject this semester made me think otherwise. Good thing, I have a good friend as my partner.

Guys, meet  JULIE!

So there, that is Julie. She has been with me through the ups and downs of my photography life  (most of it downs).

Okay. So, photography made me eat cup noodles for dinner. It made me give up some perks like Starb (not. i just had one last thurs), shopping (i don't go shopping. I am perpetually broke) and the likes (sleep).

Why am i doing this entry? Er, maybe because, i'll have my photog class in like 5 hours from now and i am not yet hitting the sack. oh well, i am not that sleepy. Maybe, I will not sleep at all na lang. Baka ma-late pa ako. Damn.

Say hello to overcut issues in the future. HAHA.

On a deeper but still senseless note, I'm still in the pursuit of finding the ultimate happiness. It is tiring but i hope i'll get to find my gusto once again. I need seratonin, endorphines or what have you. Anything that would make me feel good, sexy and pretty.

(i realized na medyo shallow at napaka-superficial ko pala. Oh, well. Deal with it.)

August 20, 2009, thursday.
Location: Drew's, Katip Ü

Drink all you can. I had to go to Starb - Katip, gulp down a short non - fat, caramel machiatto,  so that i can last until the wee hours. HAHA.

RESULT: I did last without getting tipsy or anything.

congratulations to meee!

May nag-away pa nung mga 1:00 am. Funny. Haay. Ateneans = Warfreak. Haha.

  =  tipsy pen. (NOTT. thanks to the ever reliable but pricey starb coffee. damn.)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEBBB! 

DEBB. Sana hindi na lang tayo na-reshuffle. I Über miss you.

Sana hindi na lang nawala ang Sun phone ko.

HUW.

Nevertheless, I am so happy that you are still here after all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEBB.