October 5th, 2008
*cheers*
some caffeine - induced thoughts:
contrary to what other people see, i actually do a lot of thinking and weighing and wandering. i ask. i look. i sometimes try to kill myself out of boredom and regret. i am not tired. i am up for more. but the thing is, the situation doesn't allow me to do more things. don't get me wrong. i am happy. i like what is happening to me right now. all i'm asking is a sense of balance from..er..myself Ü. i love playing and i love working. but, it seems that the world only wants me to play.
here's to my 19th! wow. i am a year away from adulthood. haha. shit.
1. i need new pieces of lingerie. the expensive ones. (read: wacoal, caliope, etc.)
2. i need a new cellphone. (dual sim, please?)
3. i need gadgets! (i-pod touch, slr, laptop)
4. i need a shopping spree at greenbelt 4 and 5. (asa!)
5. i need a fling, a boylet, a past time or what have you. (basta, i need one for crying out load!)
i love making lists; however, i am so hating it right now. my attempt to make one just made me realize how deprived i am and i tell you, it's worse than having a root canal (i never had one but they say that it is really a painful experience).
anyway, HB(19) to me!
dear katrina/ pen/ kat,
please learn how to love me.
'till your 90th,
katrina/ pen/ kat
