whatever it is that is eating all my energy but is piling up the fats in my hips -- the hell with it. vicariously enjoying the best things in life is not the key to my peace. i want more. i want deep, invigorating convo with a friend i haven't met for a while, with a person i said bad things to, with my starb planner that is accumulating dust because i am far not too interested in upadating it. i laugh out loud because it changes a thing if not everything. a friend who doesn't allow you to rant is sometimes the best remedy for all the pain and frustrations i am currently skinny dipping in. who can blame me if i question success and mobilty, quotes and Oprah Winfrey?
College is good; just don't lose yourself in it.
That's the only thing that i can say to my sister who is in her senior year in highschool and is so unexplainably excited about entering college.
If only i could tell her everything, everything that has happened and is happening to me, i would.
Lighting up will never solve anything. it will just make you feel more frustrated and lonesome.
Beer is not the answer.
Bars are way too overrated.
Coffee, not beer, can make you FAT.
Sometimes it is not just it. You hasten because you thought life is a contest, that friendships are based on who smiles the most when the going gets tough. Selfishness can sometimes be justified. Happiness is sometimes way too contrived.
with all those said, i'll continue. no. matter. what.
AND OH,
BELATED 20TH HB TO ME.
Currently listening to: JANET JACKSON
Currently reading: i stopped.
Currently watching: gelo photoshopping
Currently feeling: tell me